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Love is all around . . . .

Posted on April 25, 2007 by Chris

Thank you thank you thank you. JunkiesWife. You’re welcome to it. I got a million of ‘em. Wayward? I was thinking that you and I probably understand what it is to be struck by a thought like few do. And Marc? My imaginary future ex husband. 90in90 is a bare minimum. But it isn’t a substitute for treatment. And I totally enjoyed the mania. It WAS great. Thank all of you for your love and support and encouragement along the path. I am truly blessed indeed.

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3 Responses

  1. Marc Olmsted, on April 27th, 2007 at 4:08 am Said:

    I’m delighted to be your imaginary future ex-husband. It seems to be the role I play in so many lives. You know the expression: “Always the imaginary future ex-husband, never the bride.”

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  2. rod, on April 27th, 2007 at 3:37 pm Said:

    hey chris- thanx so much for the shout and the site-review. i am really humbled. loving the mania? know it well. so well, in fact, that it was hard to let go of. even when it was costing me way too much. i guess it feels safer to hold on to something that’s unhealthy but familiar than to try endure something new and strange and foreign, even though it may be miraculous. flatlining emotionally on lithium was soooooo challenging for this very reason. but i have leveled out long ago and couldn’t be more relieved. step 3- it’s a powerful one. and for a while my higher power had to be my prescriptionist. oh, and that was a role i had to give up, too…..

    you really make me smile— thank you.

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  3. Chris, on April 27th, 2007 at 10:39 pm Said:

    Lithium (and a lack of crystal meth) made me FAT. I’m trying Lamictal and loving it. Step 3 helps too. So does 1, 2, 4, 5, 6 and 7.

    Working on 8 seems to be good too! LOL

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