Writing a post from my mobile phone is totally impossible.

I’ve finally come to that realization. Either it’s too hard or I’m too stupid or it cannot be done. Like my crystal meth use, I am finally willing to admit powerlessness.
FUCK!!!!!
I hate that. I know I should be feeling freedom but every time I have to encounter powerlessness I struggle.

When I need to change the way I feel I focus on gratitude.

When I’m suffering too much, when I have to change the way I feel right now, I find that gratitude works for me the same way drugs did. Gratitude puts everything in perspective. Gratitude makes things right. It’s easy enough for me to forget where I came from or justify some feeling [...]

By permit only.

By permit only.Originally uploaded by chrismecham.

I don’t have genital herpes, but . . .

I have herpes.  That’s what causes the type of meningitis I get every year or so.  This time it struck a little differently.  It hit the base of my spine first and then traveled to my feet which caused the edema.
Yes.  I have herpes on my toes.
I’m going to live!

Wreckage of the Past

I’m pretty scared. I’m finally at a computer and can write a normal post but I hardly have the energy to. Every night I sweat through every t-shirt I own. The swelling in my feet has gone down somewhat, but now they hurt like hell. As does my head. I’m [...]

Help

I can’t even tell you how sick i’ve been. The list of symptoms is too long. Too painful. Cranial edema. Irregular heartbeat and EKG. Nausea. Night sweats. Vertigo. I’m scared. And tired.

Quite a scare . . .

and still no answers about what’s been making me sick.  The headache has subsided somewhat as has the stiffness in my neck.  My spinal tap came back normal, as I understand it can with Mollaret’s meningitis.  But Saturday night my feet began to swell.  By Sunday they were HUGE.  And I’d had night sweats.  So [...]

One sick puppy

I haven’t posted in a while because i’ve been quite ill. I went to the emergency room last wednesday. Thought i had meningitis AGAIN. Spinal tap came back clear. Sent me home. Symptoms have not improved. But now an swollen to twice normal. Hard posting from phone. [...]

Random message

Random messageOriginally uploaded by chrismecham.

Proved too much for the man.

He couldn’t take it so he’s leaving the taco stand.
I am far too arthritic to be standing on concrete six hours a day. I let them know yesterday that I couldn’t come back. I laid in bed till 3 a.m. in too much pain to go to sleep. Barely rolled out of [...]