Comments for Methed Up http://methedup.wordpress.com A diary of recovery from addiction to crystal meth Thu, 18 Jun 2009 07:18:19 +0000 http://wordpress.com/ hourly 1 Comment on This one time, at mormon camp by Reunion http://methedup.wordpress.com/2007/07/31/this-one-time-at-mormon-camp/#comment-1217 Reunion Thu, 18 Jun 2009 07:18:19 +0000 http://methedup.wordpress.com/2007/07/31/this-one-time-at-mormon-camp/#comment-1217 [...] doesn’t count, but 2 years ago my entire clan got together for a reunion (you can read about here) and we’ll be together again in a couple of days.  For the first time in decades I’ll [...] [...] doesn’t count, but 2 years ago my entire clan got together for a reunion (you can read about here) and we’ll be together again in a couple of days.  For the first time in decades I’ll [...]

]]> Comment on No Guarantees by Sobermojo http://methedup.wordpress.com/2007/09/23/no-guarantees/#comment-1216 Sobermojo Tue, 23 Sep 2008 22:37:12 +0000 http://methedup.wordpress.com/?p=200#comment-1216 Keep on rolling, I slipped twice since I started this sober journey in July and here I am, sober for the longest time I've ever been sober. I hear what you are saying about never using again. I find myself rationalizing how and when I may be able to drink someday but I know how it will turn out. 1 drink will be 20 drinks and the cycle will begin all over again. I enjoy reading your posts and will continue to check in. Sobermojo Keep on rolling, I slipped twice since I started this sober journey in July and here I am, sober for the longest time I’ve ever been sober. I hear what you are saying about never using again. I find myself rationalizing how and when I may be able to drink someday but I know how it will turn out. 1 drink will be 20 drinks and the cycle will begin all over again.

I enjoy reading your posts and will continue to check in.

Sobermojo

]]> Comment on No Guarantees by Leilani Love http://methedup.wordpress.com/2007/09/23/no-guarantees/#comment-1210 Leilani Love Fri, 02 May 2008 03:22:37 +0000 http://methedup.wordpress.com/?p=200#comment-1210 "There is not guarantee that we make it to permanent sobriety. Even with a spiritual program many of us miss the mark. After all, we’re only human. And being human, many, if not most of us, will fail at gaining victory over addiction." But the more you are willing to get back up and try again, th greater your chances of recovery. :-) Just as a note... I've visited your site several times and enjoy the postings immensely. My partner manages a clean-and-sober transitional facility, and it can get so discouraging watch people walk in and out so regularly. Keep up the good work and know that there are people praying for you. “There is not guarantee that we make it to permanent sobriety. Even with a spiritual program many of us miss the mark. After all, we’re only human. And being human, many, if not most of us, will fail at gaining victory over addiction.”

But the more you are willing to get back up and try again, th greater your chances of recovery. :-)

Just as a note… I’ve visited your site several times and enjoy the postings immensely. My partner manages a clean-and-sober transitional facility, and it can get so discouraging watch people walk in and out so regularly.

Keep up the good work and know that there are people praying for you.

]]> Comment on Leaving the keys by The Last Chance Texaco | Plays Well With Others - Making amends to friends http://methedup.wordpress.com/2007/08/12/leaving-the-keys/#comment-1202 The Last Chance Texaco | Plays Well With Others - Making amends to friends Sun, 17 Feb 2008 18:23:31 +0000 http://methedup.wordpress.com/2007/08/12/leaving-the-keys/#comment-1202 [...] ran into a friend at a meeting last night.  A friend who’s company I parted on not so friendly terms some [...] [...] ran into a friend at a meeting last night.  A friend who’s company I parted on not so friendly terms some [...]

]]> Comment on Sunrise by Scout http://methedup.wordpress.com/2007/08/21/sunrise/#comment-702 Scout Tue, 21 Aug 2007 15:26:17 +0000 http://methedup.wordpress.com/2007/08/21/sunrise/#comment-702 I am with you on this one. I don't understand people who are crabby in the morning -- nothing has even happened yet. It's the most hopeful and peaceful part of the day to me. I LOVE your blog. You write in a way that really touches me deeply. Peace, Scout I am with you on this one. I don’t understand people who are crabby in the morning — nothing has even happened yet. It’s the most hopeful and peaceful part of the day to me.
I LOVE your blog. You write in a way that really touches me deeply.
Peace,
Scout

]]> Comment on Love reads like a bad biography; all the names are changed to protect the innocent. by Tammi http://methedup.wordpress.com/2007/08/19/love-reads-like-a-bad-biography-all-the-names-are-changed-to-protect-the-innocent/#comment-782 Tammi Tue, 21 Aug 2007 00:01:47 +0000 http://methedup.wordpress.com/2007/08/19/love-reads-like-a-bad-biography-all-the-names-are-changed-to-protect-the-innocent/#comment-782 Hey Chris, I can't get email to go through...but I found a dresser and possible a bed frame....are you still a friend in need, my friend indeed? If so, gimme a call. Robb has my number if you don't. :) Tammi Hey Chris,

I can’t get email to go through…but I found a dresser and possible a bed frame….are you still a friend in need, my friend indeed? If so, gimme a call. Robb has my number if you don’t. :)

Tammi

]]> Comment on Love reads like a bad biography; all the names are changed to protect the innocent. by Noelle http://methedup.wordpress.com/2007/08/19/love-reads-like-a-bad-biography-all-the-names-are-changed-to-protect-the-innocent/#comment-784 Noelle Mon, 20 Aug 2007 23:02:18 +0000 http://methedup.wordpress.com/2007/08/19/love-reads-like-a-bad-biography-all-the-names-are-changed-to-protect-the-innocent/#comment-784 I can understand that you don't want to hurt your loved ones, but when you think about it, editing yourself deprives them of being able to see through to the real you. Sometimes honesty can cause us pain, but it is so important for you to have a refuge. The people you love make the decision to visit your blog. That means they take the chance that they will read something that affects them emotionally. In the end you do what feels right for you, but I believe personal relationships should be built on understanding. How can anyone understand you if you aren't free to be open? I can understand that you don’t want to hurt your loved ones, but when you think about it, editing yourself deprives them of being able to see through to the real you. Sometimes honesty can cause us pain, but it is so important for you to have a refuge.

The people you love make the decision to visit your blog. That means they take the chance that they will read something that affects them emotionally.

In the end you do what feels right for you, but I believe personal relationships should be built on understanding. How can anyone understand you if you aren’t free to be open?

]]> Comment on Love reads like a bad biography; all the names are changed to protect the innocent. by Chris http://methedup.wordpress.com/2007/08/19/love-reads-like-a-bad-biography-all-the-names-are-changed-to-protect-the-innocent/#comment-786 Chris Mon, 20 Aug 2007 17:18:35 +0000 http://methedup.wordpress.com/2007/08/19/love-reads-like-a-bad-biography-all-the-names-are-changed-to-protect-the-innocent/#comment-786 Hey Denys, I think in the photo I'm just, like I am much of the time, a little bit sad, a little bit heart broken. I have had a hard time smiling much lately. It's not that I don't have joy. I do. It's been a hard week, though. Between the IFX, the psycho, the dismiss-trix and the 4th step, I spend much of my time grieving. I seem to always be in more than one place along the grief continuum - bargaining and anger, acceptance and denial; there is always more than one thing going on and more than one thing to come to acceptance with. You drive down the road in your station wagon throwing the empty beer cans in the back. When, after years of doing that, you slam on the breaks, you're buried underneath the garbage of your past. Someday soon I'll smile more. Hey Denys,

I think in the photo I’m just, like I am much of the time, a little bit sad, a little bit heart broken. I have had a hard time smiling much lately. It’s not that I don’t have joy. I do. It’s been a hard week, though. Between the IFX, the psycho, the dismiss-trix and the 4th step, I spend much of my time grieving. I seem to always be in more than one place along the grief continuum – bargaining and anger, acceptance and denial; there is always more than one thing going on and more than one thing to come to acceptance with. You drive down the road in your station wagon throwing the empty beer cans in the back. When, after years of doing that, you slam on the breaks, you’re buried underneath the garbage of your past.

Someday soon I’ll smile more.

]]> Comment on Love reads like a bad biography; all the names are changed to protect the innocent. by Noelle http://methedup.wordpress.com/2007/08/19/love-reads-like-a-bad-biography-all-the-names-are-changed-to-protect-the-innocent/#comment-783 Noelle Mon, 20 Aug 2007 11:44:01 +0000 http://methedup.wordpress.com/2007/08/19/love-reads-like-a-bad-biography-all-the-names-are-changed-to-protect-the-innocent/#comment-783 Crap I have to get ready for work. I'm commenting on this when I get home! Crap I have to get ready for work. I’m commenting on this when I get home!

]]> Comment on Love reads like a bad biography; all the names are changed to protect the innocent. by Irish friend of Bill http://methedup.wordpress.com/2007/08/19/love-reads-like-a-bad-biography-all-the-names-are-changed-to-protect-the-innocent/#comment-785 Irish friend of Bill Mon, 20 Aug 2007 08:18:30 +0000 http://methedup.wordpress.com/2007/08/19/love-reads-like-a-bad-biography-all-the-names-are-changed-to-protect-the-innocent/#comment-785 yeah that kind of post (the one you refer to) is best if your identity is not known. Anonymity is very freeing. i don't reallly ubderstand why so many of the US bloggers choose to put their Identities online. Alcoholic Diary doesnt. (15yrs) Doc A at relationships in recovery (over 20yrs) doesnt. two of my former sponsees blog http://johnojohno.blogspot.com/ http://progressnotperfectionii.blogspot.com/ and I advised both to do so under a ? made up name, ie not to reveal their ID. Personally I think its by far the most sensible choice. and is very liberating in terms of what you can write. I am very pro anonymity as i find it simplifies things hugely. In all my affairs to be honest. not just blogging. I am very concious of the times when I refer to another person and mention something they did. Its a murky area. People have been confiding in me for so long, and what they tell me is private, so I have to be very tough on anonymity, as I do not want to breach their trust. i use anonymity all the time in different sorts of ways. It sort of keeps ? poteintially harmful stuff private. But as you can tell from a lot of other blogs, other people see it very differently. But I rarely find myself agreeing with the majority, so that doesnt bother me. I'm sure you will figure it out. yeah that kind of post (the one you refer to) is best if your identity is not known. Anonymity is very freeing. i don’t reallly ubderstand why so many of the US bloggers choose to put their Identities online.
Alcoholic Diary doesnt. (15yrs) Doc A at relationships in recovery (over 20yrs) doesnt. two of my former sponsees blog
http://johnojohno.blogspot.com/
http://progressnotperfectionii.blogspot.com/
and I advised both to do so under a ? made up name, ie not to reveal their ID. Personally I think its by far the most sensible choice. and is very liberating in terms of what you can write.
I am very pro anonymity as i find it simplifies things hugely. In all my affairs to be honest. not just blogging. I am very concious of the times when I refer to another person and mention something they did. Its a murky area. People have been confiding in me for so long, and what they tell me is private, so I have to be very tough on anonymity, as I do not want to breach their trust. i use anonymity all the time in different sorts of ways. It sort of keeps ? poteintially harmful stuff private.
But as you can tell from a lot of other blogs, other people see it very differently. But I rarely find myself agreeing with the majority, so that doesnt bother me. I’m sure you will figure it out.

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